Don't count me out yet...

Wow. I have been a total slacker on the blog. A whole month hiatus. I am ashamed! But I have not given up and I hope I'm not the only one. First, I have to apologize. I really do believe this accountability thing will help, but it doesn't work if I don't participate. So I'm sorry Linz. I will be better, if you are still willing. I know Christmas is next week, so things are on hold for a bit, but I still want to make some goals this next couple weeks as I think what my goals are going to be for the New Year.

-Maintain my current weight (losing isn't too realistic for me this next couple weeks)
-Portion control. I know that I'm going to be getting and making treats and lots of unhealthy things, but I can limit how much I have, but still enjoy it, so I feel less restricted.
-Don't feel guilty all the time about what I have eaten, but let it be a reminder to have more self control.
-Be more active, find opportunities, like parking farther away at the store or taking the stairs at work.
-Write another post by Wednesday of next week and evaluate my meager little goals, but it's a start!

I really want to do this. The holidays throw us all for a loop, everything is so busy on top of our already busy lives. Tanner and I were flipping channels the other night and came across this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5N_uGFOfIY

A PBS special with Dr. Fuhrman about his new program-3 Steps to Incredible Health. It is the same as Eat to Live, but has more resources. Anyway, there are a few clips on youtube, I definitely recommend them. It is so motivating and makes so much sense. It doesn't change that his way is hard and so much work. But I really needed to hear the things he said. We are literally shortening our lives with the foods we eat. I don't want to be diabetic, have heart disease, etc. I want to be able to chase Eric and our future other children around without feeling too tired. When we go crazy at night, I always wake up the next morning feeling less rested and nauseated. I woke up this morning feeling that way and I thought, 'this is my body trying to tell me it doesn't like this. Telling me to make a change.' He also pointed out that these are real addictions and our bodies go through withdrawals. It is so true! When I've eaten a TON of dinner, I definitely am not hungry, but feel like I need to eat a dessert later. I feel like I need it. Tanner and I talked about it, we both feel that way. And I don't want to anymore. I don't care about being a certain size, I just want to be healthy and feel good. Tanner and I are still discussing if we're going to try Eat to Live again this New Year. It is a lot of work and counting calories is a lot easier. But it might not be enough of a change for us, obviously, because we have fallen back into old habits. I will let you know what we decide, think about your resolutions for the new year and how you are doing and what you think!

Sorry so late

Ok, I'm crappy at getting my posts up on time. But Linz, I loved your last post. I failed on the accountability part this week because I didn't put up my results, but I will be better. For my goals from last week, I didn't do so hot.

I stayed in my calorie limit 3/7 days. 

I had a treat 4/7 days. 

I did work out 3 times and they were all an hour long, so that was good.

I only wrote down all my calories 2/7 days, need to do better on that. 

I lost my one pound, and nothing more! :)

I think that was all of them. I am copying and adding

Don't eat after 8 pm

because this is the time when I am most tempted to eat crap. It is good to see our numbers and what we need to improve on. I will add one last goal

Post on time, by Monday at the latest

Ok, happy Friday!

my weekly evaluation

I am going to evaluate my goals in this post.

Last weeks goals and how I did:

Keep track of all my calories and stay within my limit. I didn't keep track as well as I should have. However I did better than I did from the previous two weeks combined.
Exercise 5 times-at least 30 minutes each. I only did two official 30 minute workouts again better than I did the week before. But I took a walk 4 out of 7 days on top of the 30 minute workouts.
Start getting back in to running, even if it's just once this week. My main workouts were running this week. Of course since I haven't ran in a while it was my own variation, well a program that I found online to help work me up to running 20 minutes straight. It felt really good to run actually.
No eating past 8:00pm. I did this maybe 2 out of 7 days. I need to work on this one.
Drink 8-10 glasses of water daily. I didn't get 8-10 every day but I almost did. I kept track of my water and put forth the effort to drink more.
Lose 2 pounds by next Monday morning. check!

This weeks goals:
I'm actually keeping with the same goals as last week. But I'm going to really focus on not eating past 8:00 and exercising. I really didn't think I did that well this week but as I evaluate myself I'm feeling more confident and realize I need to focus on the things that I did do rather than those I didn't. I'm starting to feel my habits change recently too. I bought some very yummy chocolate from this Christmas expo I went to this past weekend. When I got home I opened it and Michael, Noelle and I shared some pieces. I was able to limit myself to 1-2 pieces instead of completely losing control and eating 10. That was kind of a breakthrough for me. Yesterday something happened that got me pretty discouraged. I don't really want to share it but it kind of opened my eyes. I was sad for a little bit and mad at myself again for all the things I haven't accomplished, weight loss wise, and for letting myself get this overweight. But as I evaluate myself this morning I'm reminded that I've accomplished little things this past week. And though I wasn't perfect these little things will add up to a lot in the end.

'tis the beginning of a season

Lets not talk about the last two weeks of my life as far as eating goes. Let's just say part of it was due to my daughter's b-day and Halloween. Anyway. I realized this last Friday that the beginning of the "eating season" is upon us. Our ward had an early Thanksgiving dinner and I had to make some things for it. My egg nog pumpkin pie, pumpkin cheese cakes and my sweet sweet potatoes. I thought, "Oh no, it's here and I haven't even gotten very far in my weight loss." But as Nina's last post said "We just need to get back on track." So I'm feeling optimistic. One reason I think I'm feeling this way is because I weighed myself this morning and even after two not very good weeks I haven't gained any weight. I was totally shocked. I think it's due to walking a couple of times a week. I'm not even close to my "big goal" that I set. I was really ambitious back then and thought I could lose weight faster than I have been. So I'm going to have to set a more realistic big goal. For now I will share my smaller yet important goals for the week:

Keep track of all my calories and stay within my limit.
Exercise 5 times-at least 30 minutes each.
Start getting back in to running, even if it's just once this week.
No eating past 8:00pm.
Drink 8-10 glasses of water daily.
Lose 2 pounds by next Monday morning.

Can I add some different kind of personal goals as well? These might not be as measurable but I need to put them somewhere so I can personally see how I did.

Turn my negative thoughts in to positive ones.
Play with my kids more this week.

Re-evaluating

So I've been thinking about this blog and how we can better use it to help us towards our goals. I felt like we were so motivated at the beginninmg and it has gotten harder to know what to blog about except our frustrations. That is definitely a part of this, being here for each other, but we are lacking the accountability that we said we wanted in the beginning. The goals we set are still great, and we made them realistic, but they are still so far, it is hard to stay focused. I realized we need to set goals in a smaller time frame, like week to week. Since we are trying to post once a week, I think that is a good start. I really think this blog is so great and I don't want it to fizzle out, so let me know what you think.
I know this sounds like we're back in elementary school, but I just want to put down for myself the necessary components for setting and accomplishing goals. They need to be specific. Our big goals have specific numbers, but not how we are going to get there. This is definitely something I'm lacking. They have to be measurable. Not just meaning pounds lost, but examples are calorie counting, how many time per week we've exercised, etc. The last three are achievable, realistic, and time-targeted. I feel like we really have been doing this, but if we shrink it down to one week increments, it will help us work towards our overall goals so much better. It is realistic to recognize that we are losing the weight over time and don't have to lose it in 6 weeks, but sometimes it's hard not to cheat when our goal met date is so far off. So overall, we will still have set them for our dates set up before. But we will set our smaller goals each week. It is up to each person how many exact numbers they want to share, but I will say that the more specific and the more we share, the more the accountability part works. If I set a goal to lose 2 pounds this week and I don't, I don't really want to share that, but I know that if I put it out there and have to publish real numbers rather than just saying I didn't do well. I'm not saying we want to make each other feel bad, but I know I'll feel more pressure (in a beneficial way) to do well if I have to write numbers down. Again, there is no pressure to put it down if you don't want to, this is just what I'm realizing will help me more. I just know that it is easier not think about it when I mess up, so this is a helpful way to stay focused, but not get so overwhelmed.
So for this week coming up, here are my goals:

Exercise 5 times a week; each day at least 30 minutes/day, but I would like at least 3 of those days to be 1 hour/day.
Stay within my calorie limit 6/7 days. I am not going to post what my calorie limit is, but I will be posting next week how much I go over if I do mess up to help me stay focused. Do NOT do this if it will only make you more stressed. This is just something I'm trying to see if it helps me.
Only have one cheat meal/week. Keep this goal through the weekend!
Only have one treat/week.
Lose one pound by next Sunday.

Tanner's goals are:

Record calorie intake daily.
Stay within calorie limit 6/7 days.
One cheat meal per week.
Lose 2 pounds by next Sunday.

Tanner and I were talking today and one of us said, "I'll start on Monday." The other person said, "We are already started, we just got off track." We don't have to think of it as all or nothing, do it or blow it big time. If we go out to eat, enjoy it and we can eat better the rest of the day. Weekends are so hard for me right now. Here we go, it's going to be great!

I'm still discouraged that I can't seem to "stay on track." However I've come to a realization. Even though I haven't gotten the results that I've wanted or have gotten in the past I feel I'm more successful this time around. And this is because of two things 1) I realize when I mess up and actually have a desire to do better and 2) I haven't quit all together. I did really pretty well this past week except on Saturday. But even then I didn't "blow" it, well not as much as I have in the past. I also have realized a few other things. I had a baby 12 weeks ago. That's really not that long ago, so I have to give myself a break. I have a lot to be grateful for in my life, and if I focus on the negative things I don't have time to enjoy the good. I probably won't accomplish my percentage goal by the end of the year, but that's okay. I have to work out and eat healthy at the same time. If I try to eat well I can't stay on track as much if I haven't worked out. I have to make working out a priority as well. I've been trying this Special K program lately. And it's been going pretty well. I know it's just a matter of counting calories and portion size but it's what I need right now. I need that "this is what you have to eat" kind of thing. It works for me. And I enjoy the food. Now I just need to cut out the bad stuff and I'll be doing good. I'm starting to make little goals for myself each week. Such as "I will not eat after 7pm" or "turn negative thoughts in to positive ones." I have to be successful at these little things. I'm sick of being hard of myself. I know that I've been hard on myself my entire life so I can't change over night. But I hate not enjoying my days because I'm worried if I'm staying on track with my diet. I'm just starting to feel that these habits are controllable and for the first time in like 6 weeks I'm feeling optimistic about my health. I've decided to make a goal or two each week that I am really going to work on and I'm going to share it here. Goal 1: turn negative thoughts into positive ones. Goal 2: Work out purposefully 3-4 times this week.

So we made it to month #2 and we're still here. Two of us anyway. :) Just kidding Aly. I've invited Dad, so we'll see what he has to say.
So I've had to sit down and look at what I'm doing and go over it again. I was doing really well calorie counting and between work and taking care of the family, I feel like it is the easiest thing for me right now. I just need to get back on it again. It is so much easier said than done. Even though I know it was only a few weeks ago I was doing it and I felt so much better doing it. On some things I'm being more specific. I'm still using that website from before to calculate my calories. Then I have two options for breakfast and two options for lunch each day. It might sound boring to eat the same thing most days, but it really isn't that bad. I just picked something easy that I like, usually a sandwich. It is nice because I already have figured out how many calories are in it and I can just plug it in to my spreadsheet. On some days that I really am craving something less healthy, I have a cheese quesadilla on corn tortillas, because even though it's more fattening, it ends up being about the same as my usual sandwich, then I am only allowed to have a piece of fruit or a vegetable to go with it. Then for dinner Tanner and I have regular meals, but we cut down on portion sizes. This has been hard for us. But I'm starting to simply make a little less, so it isn't tempting to just finish it.
Other things I've had to just go with it. If we do cheat or blow it at dinner with some friends, we just keep going and remind each other that we're trying to eat healthy overall, not just kill ourselves. I'm not looking at numbers this week because after last week, the few pounds I have lost are almost all back. But I'm not going to stress myself out over it. I can't be thinking about food all the time and worrying, or when I do blow it, I get so down on myself about it. I have to just say that it's okay and keep going. My goal this week is to stay on track and not have more than one big cheat meal. I'll let you know next week how it goes!

frustration

Well I don't know if I'm still going strong. This has been the HARDEST thing for me. I can't seem to stay on track at all. I do well for like 3 days and then I blow it. But not just for a day, it's for like 3 days. I can't stick with any one program. I start out all motivated and start strong and then it just blows up in my face. I feel like right now I can't control anything in my life. Except my attitude I guess. In the morning I think, "I'm going to make a shake for breakfast." Then life happens: Noelle screams at me because she's hungry, Michael starts crying and is also hungry. By the time everyone is fed, changed and satisfied it's like 10am and I'm hungry. So I go for something that is fast and easy. But I don't seem to go for the really healthy option. An egg sandwich. A bowl of cereal. Sure a bowl of cereal can be good, but not when I like triple the serving. What is my problem? Food has really got a hold on me. I don't know what to do anymore. I know I could do any program if I really put my mind to it, but am I really as committed as I should be? I think deep down I am waiting for it to eventually become easy and it'll just be like second nature to eat healthy. Maybe I should pray for the thyroid disease that makes me lose weight (I really don't mean that cause I know people who've had it that have been really sick, but I kinda mean it). I can't seem to get over the fact that I've let myself get this unhealthy. I can't seem to move forward. I kind of just want to scream. Sorry guys to be such a downer. I just feel so frustrated and am very close to just quitting and becoming a professional peanut butter taster.

p.s.-You guys are my inspiration. Keep up the great work!

Sorry for missing last week. To backtrack, last week went pretty well. I didn't eat the healthiest food, which I need to improve on, but I was able to keep my calories at or below my goal most days. It is really hard for me to feel full on smaller amounts of food, but I am finding it easier some days, if I give in a eat something that I want, then just count that as my meal, then my calories still stay low and I feel less deprived.
This week though, is going to have to be written off. Grandma and Grandpa Fullmer were here and it was bad. That is all I'm going to say. We both went to bed every night feeling sick. It did make us realize though that we have felt so much better these last few weeks keeping better track of what we are eating, even though we aren't perfect. We feel really motivated to get back on the wagon, not in a blow it and diet again way, but literally looking forward to eating normally again. We were saying we really feel like we can do this, we know we can. This is the first time I have really felt sure that I can meet my goals. Not to say I won't run into doubts and problems along the way, but it great when you have those moments, and I'm going to hold onto that.
Linz, I loved your letter! Hope your week is going well, and Aly, hope you are doing well too. Dad may be joining us, and if you are reading this, we're glad you are! Week 4 and we're still going, yeah!

My Dearest Food,

I'm at a loss of what to say to you today. You've been one of my best friends for so long. You've comforted me when I've been so sad and stressed. You've helped me to not feel so alone. You've made all the fun and special occasions in my life that much more wonderful. But I think we've come to a crossroads. As much as I love you, our relationship needs to change. You can be so good for me at times. And I absolutely need you to survive. That's why it makes it so hard to say this. I need a break. A break from the parts of you that aren't good for me. A break from the sweetest parts of you, that are usually my favorite. A break from all the stuff that is so not good for my physical and mental health. I need something to change or else this body of mine is just not going to last as long as I would like it to. Although I'm not giving you up. And on those special occasions I know you will be right there. I'm just going to try to get to know the parts of you that are good for me.

I have a confession to make. I'm addicted to you. You're like a drug for me. And that's not good. Do you understand what I'm trying to say? I want our relationship to change forever. I know that I will fall sometimes and give in to your tempting ways but I cannot stay in that place or else my physical and mental health will be in jeopardy again. Please do not think I am intentionally using you. I'm just trying to get the good parts from you and not the bad. I love all your sides. I just need some of them in moderation. I have to break this bad habit that is you.

I am doing this not only for me but for my family as well. I want to be able to run around with my kids for a long time and if I continue on the path that I am now I won't be able to do that. As much as I love you, I love my family and my health more. I need you to stay healthy and to have energy. So thank you for that. Thank you for all the fun times we've had. Thank you for comforting me when nothing else would. Thank you for being my constant friend. But now it's time to say goodbye to our old relationship. I'm looking forward to our new one and know there will be some bumps along the way. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say. Please don't be sad. I'll miss you a lot.

Love always, your devoted friend,
Lindsey

desserts: the bane of my existence

I think I could live without a lot of different foods. I like meat, and couldn't go without it completely, but I'm fine with less of it. I can control my portion sizes with meals (not easily, this has been an adjustment, but doable), but what I can't resist, what I crave more than anything, is sugar. I love treats. Especially chocolate treats. And I love to bake. The combo is what has made me gain weight since we got out here.
This last week we both did really well, then Friday night came around and I got home late and we were both starving, so we said we would do a cheat meal (we are trying to just have one meal a week where we can eat really unhealthy food, just try and eat a little less of it, and not worry about it). So we got pizza and ice cream that night. It was so heavy, we both could only eat two pieces (don't be too impressed, we had cheesy bread too) and one helping of ice cream. But then Saturday we have leftover pizza and ice cream in the fridge, just taunting us. So we each have 1.5 pieces of pizza for lunch and something healthy to go with it. Then we caved again and had some ice cream that night. And Sunday night, we were both having a craving and I made peanut butter bars. I made a half batch so there wouldn't be as much, but we ate almost half the pan ourselves. I gave the rest away the next day so we wouldn't be tempted. But today, my neighbor paid me back and brought us a bunch of chocolate chip cookies. I just ate five. Within the last 10 minutes.
So this is a little bit in response to Linz before. First of all, don't beat yourself up about it. It is okay to have a little bit of cake or a lot of cake. It will get easier over time to eat some and not go crazy. Tanner and I are finding that we can't completely restrict ourselves, so we are eating normal things, but trying to find lower calorie options and watch how much. I know you are doing Body for Life, but if you want a copy of the spreadsheet we are using to count calories, you are welcome to. I have found it helps me, even though I am not perfect, to see how much I am consuming and helps me scale back. If I eat 3 healthy snacks that day, it helps me really see what a difference it makes compared to have one treat that equals the same amount. I tell myself I can have that treat, I will just have to have less of something else through the day.
I don't know if this is helpful to you, but it is just more realistic for me. I am never going to be able to give up good food, I just love food too much. I am just trying to get back to enjoying it in a healthier way. I loved this web page I found, it also reminds you that 0.5-2 lb weight loss per week is great for sustainable weight loss. It lets you put in your goal weight, your activity level, height, etc and if you leave the goal date blank it will calculate a reasonable date to reach your weight loss goal. It told me mine is 4 months away if I eat the recommended amount of calories. In the past I would have thought this sounded too long, but since I am not restricting myself so much, it doesn't feel so bad. And I'm not as stressed about the scale. With the Fuhrman and other diets I've done, I find myself disappointed if I didn't lose at least 4 or 5 pounds a week. And the times I have lost that much, I gain it back in the next few months.
Linz, it is okay to get frustrated, I feel it too, but I'm telling you right now, just let it go. You are doing great. This one mistake is not going to define you or your self worth, you are still working toward your goal and doing great! You are a great mom, an amazing sister and friend. You are too hard on yourself. Just accept that you want to do better and forget about the cake. Who cares??? Keep going, the rest of the day is going to be great, I know you can do it. This isn't about perfection, we are real people, we don't have trainers, we are living regular lives. We aren't quitting this easily! Okay, I'm going to get off my soap box now, here's to another week!!!

i HATE cake!!

What I really mean is that I love it so much, I hate it. I made a cake for my sister on Monday. Well it was meant to be a three tier cake but the top tier was too unstable so it's been in our fridge for a few days. I've resisted it...up until now. Noelle wanted some and I caved. The problem was that I didn't just cave a little, I caved a lot. I want to cry. Whenever I start out restricting a lot of the foods I ate before, I do this. I'm craving it so much that I give in to that craving and I feel all is lost. The problem was that before I had no restrictions whatsoever, which you can guess has added to all my weight gain. This is one of the things that I'm hoping to get on top of. I cannot live this way the rest of my life. I need to have restrictions or else I feel like I'm going downhill, spiraling out of control. AHHHHHH! With most diets I've started I never last past the first couple of weeks because of this addiction/problem that I have. It usually happens under stress or feeling down. I would like to say that I'm motivated to just keep going forward but I'm not. I'm frustrated and discouraged and it's only like week two in my seemingly never ending journey. I'm going to move forward whether I want to or not. So I think I'll just cry a little and start my day again. Even though start #1 was only a couple hours ago. Maybe this is why this time is different. Before I would have given up and wrecked my day completely but today I'm not going to.

p.s. Please tell me others have the same problem I do at times.

Up a Cup

Yes, that's right. I'm up a cup. I remember being horrified when I went from a size A to a size B. Alas, now I'm a size C. Bleh! I've never been prego! This is a sure sign that I'm gaining weight. My bras look humongous now. You could wear them as a helmet on your head, it would cover it completely! Hahaha. For this reason, and many other more pressing and important reasons, I want to lose weight. I've been trying to keep away from treats and desserts. I've been doing well for a the most part, though I did have a piece of cake on Taylor's birthday party. But I'm proud because I've been able to stay away from desserts for almost 2 months. I can start eating them again in January. We'll see how that goes. All I know, my chant for the next couple months will be: Thirty-six B! Thirty-six B! Thirty-six B! Thirty-six B! Cheer with me!!!! :)

Here I Go Again

This is Lindsey. I'm kind of excited to post on this blog. I know at least 3 or 4 other people are reading it and I feel more accountable. I feel like this is my bazillionth time trying to lose weight. I start out thinking I am motivated and then it ends rather soon. I justify breaking the diet because of stress or convenience. But I'm so sick of feeling the way I do as far as my body goes that I just am ready for this time to be different. I'm feeling pretty positive about my life right now and things are going well. I just don't feel comfortable in my own skin. And that is my ultimate goal here, is to feel comfortable in the body I have and right now I don't. I'm so far from that and thinking about that feeling makes me want to cry. But that is not why I'm here. I started Body for Life two weeks ago. Week 1 went okay and I lost some weight. Week 2 didn't go so well for certain reasons. I won't give you my excuses. But I'm just going to eliminate that week and start week 2 over, starting today (yesterday was my sister's birthday and I made her a cake-there's one of my excuses.) The Body for Life book is really motivating so I'm reading that and hoping it will help. In the book a man is describing how he feels about his body "I opened my eyes and realized that my body had become something I didn't feel was me." That's EXACTLY how I feel. If you take away my body I feel pretty good about myself and what I've accomplished. But my body is here and I can't take it away. It's just in a state that doesn't portray how I feel deep down. I'm grateful for my body I just need to take better care of it and make it a priority.

I'm not going to share with you my ultimate weight loss goal until I've actually accomplished it. And I don't know if I ever will share my start out weight with anyone except my husband. Right now I'm going to just set smaller goals that I'm going to work toward. I think that will help me keep motivated. Cause lets be honest, if I look only toward my ultimate goal I might quit because it seems so far away. So I'm going to have my ultimate goal along with my little goals in the back of my mind. Actually they should be in the front of my mind. So here's my first goal. To lose approx. 19.3% of my body weight by January 1st. There I said it. It's out there for all to see. Well at least those 3-4 people that will be reading this. I kind of feel a mixture between positiveness, nervousness, and doubt. I know I can do it but because I never have finished a weight loss goal in the past I'm kind of doubting myself. But I've put it all on the line and am now in this "Biggest Fullmer Loser" thing and I haven't done this before so that's a positive change right? Anyway, here I go again.

So it begins..

So, Tanner and I have started today on our weight loss goal. We have weighed ourselves this morning and written it down on our calendar. We are going to have Sunday weigh ins, but only the other person will see. Tanner is following a 1500-1600 calorie/day restriction. I am counting calories as well, but since I am still nursing, I have more. I am increasing my daily exercise goal to 5 times per week, with at least 3 of those being 30 minutes of moderate-intense workouts.
My goal is to lose 15% of my body weight. I haven't written down an exact date to have this done by because I always try to do it in 1 or 2 months and then give up or when I get close, I celebrate by eating myself into oblivion. We are trying to make long term changes that are sustainable. We are eating healthier breakfasts and lunches, but regular dinners, just cutting down on portion sizes. I have also been making sure to have a vegetable (preferably green) with dinner.
I only fit into one pair of jeans right now, and they are a few sizes above my previous size. I am going to make a goal to try and fit back into at least one other pair of my jeans, not my skinny (not literal skinny jeans, but my pair from when I was skinny) jeans, just some that I used to be able to wear by December 15th. I am feeling motivated and excited to check in and see my progress. I will upload a picture later, I don't have time now, but it must be in a bikini. Just kidding, I've never worn a bikini in my life and never will.
This isn't easy, but I want to be healthy! For Eric, for my family, and for myself. I physically feel like crap after I eat horribly, and emotionally I don't feel good about myself either. I keep thinking it will be better after the holidays. But there is always something coming up to cheat on. Holidays, but then there's Eric's birthday, then mine, then summer bbqs, etc, where do I draw the line? I am still going to eat things I like with the holidays, just going to eat less and in moderation.We don't have to finish a half gallon of ice cream the same night we buy it! Tanner and I have this attitude, if we've already eaten like crap, why not blow it today and start tomorrow? I need to stop this thinking. I want to feel more in control of myself and just feel better. So far today is going great. I keep getting the urge to snack, but instead drink a big glass of water and do something else like cleaning or read. I'm trying to stay away from the tv because that is where a lot of my eating urges happen. It's only day one, but I'm feel motivated and excited. We can do it!!!