I'm still discouraged that I can't seem to "stay on track." However I've come to a realization. Even though I haven't gotten the results that I've wanted or have gotten in the past I feel I'm more successful this time around. And this is because of two things 1) I realize when I mess up and actually have a desire to do better and 2) I haven't quit all together. I did really pretty well this past week except on Saturday. But even then I didn't "blow" it, well not as much as I have in the past. I also have realized a few other things. I had a baby 12 weeks ago. That's really not that long ago, so I have to give myself a break. I have a lot to be grateful for in my life, and if I focus on the negative things I don't have time to enjoy the good. I probably won't accomplish my percentage goal by the end of the year, but that's okay. I have to work out and eat healthy at the same time. If I try to eat well I can't stay on track as much if I haven't worked out. I have to make working out a priority as well. I've been trying this Special K program lately. And it's been going pretty well. I know it's just a matter of counting calories and portion size but it's what I need right now. I need that "this is what you have to eat" kind of thing. It works for me. And I enjoy the food. Now I just need to cut out the bad stuff and I'll be doing good. I'm starting to make little goals for myself each week. Such as "I will not eat after 7pm" or "turn negative thoughts in to positive ones." I have to be successful at these little things. I'm sick of being hard of myself. I know that I've been hard on myself my entire life so I can't change over night. But I hate not enjoying my days because I'm worried if I'm staying on track with my diet. I'm just starting to feel that these habits are controllable and for the first time in like 6 weeks I'm feeling optimistic about my health. I've decided to make a goal or two each week that I am really going to work on and I'm going to share it here. Goal 1: turn negative thoughts into positive ones. Goal 2: Work out purposefully 3-4 times this week.