So it begins..

So, Tanner and I have started today on our weight loss goal. We have weighed ourselves this morning and written it down on our calendar. We are going to have Sunday weigh ins, but only the other person will see. Tanner is following a 1500-1600 calorie/day restriction. I am counting calories as well, but since I am still nursing, I have more. I am increasing my daily exercise goal to 5 times per week, with at least 3 of those being 30 minutes of moderate-intense workouts.
My goal is to lose 15% of my body weight. I haven't written down an exact date to have this done by because I always try to do it in 1 or 2 months and then give up or when I get close, I celebrate by eating myself into oblivion. We are trying to make long term changes that are sustainable. We are eating healthier breakfasts and lunches, but regular dinners, just cutting down on portion sizes. I have also been making sure to have a vegetable (preferably green) with dinner.
I only fit into one pair of jeans right now, and they are a few sizes above my previous size. I am going to make a goal to try and fit back into at least one other pair of my jeans, not my skinny (not literal skinny jeans, but my pair from when I was skinny) jeans, just some that I used to be able to wear by December 15th. I am feeling motivated and excited to check in and see my progress. I will upload a picture later, I don't have time now, but it must be in a bikini. Just kidding, I've never worn a bikini in my life and never will.
This isn't easy, but I want to be healthy! For Eric, for my family, and for myself. I physically feel like crap after I eat horribly, and emotionally I don't feel good about myself either. I keep thinking it will be better after the holidays. But there is always something coming up to cheat on. Holidays, but then there's Eric's birthday, then mine, then summer bbqs, etc, where do I draw the line? I am still going to eat things I like with the holidays, just going to eat less and in moderation.We don't have to finish a half gallon of ice cream the same night we buy it! Tanner and I have this attitude, if we've already eaten like crap, why not blow it today and start tomorrow? I need to stop this thinking. I want to feel more in control of myself and just feel better. So far today is going great. I keep getting the urge to snack, but instead drink a big glass of water and do something else like cleaning or read. I'm trying to stay away from the tv because that is where a lot of my eating urges happen. It's only day one, but I'm feel motivated and excited. We can do it!!!