Well I don't know if I'm still going strong. This has been the HARDEST thing for me. I can't seem to stay on track at all. I do well for like 3 days and then I blow it. But not just for a day, it's for like 3 days. I can't stick with any one program. I start out all motivated and start strong and then it just blows up in my face. I feel like right now I can't control anything in my life. Except my attitude I guess. In the morning I think, "I'm going to make a shake for breakfast." Then life happens: Noelle screams at me because she's hungry, Michael starts crying and is also hungry. By the time everyone is fed, changed and satisfied it's like 10am and I'm hungry. So I go for something that is fast and easy. But I don't seem to go for the really healthy option. An egg sandwich. A bowl of cereal. Sure a bowl of cereal can be good, but not when I like triple the serving. What is my problem? Food has really got a hold on me. I don't know what to do anymore. I know I could do any program if I really put my mind to it, but am I really as committed as I should be? I think deep down I am waiting for it to eventually become easy and it'll just be like second nature to eat healthy. Maybe I should pray for the thyroid disease that makes me lose weight (I really don't mean that cause I know people who've had it that have been really sick, but I kinda mean it). I can't seem to get over the fact that I've let myself get this unhealthy. I can't seem to move forward. I kind of just want to scream. Sorry guys to be such a downer. I just feel so frustrated and am very close to just quitting and becoming a professional peanut butter taster.
p.s.-You guys are my inspiration. Keep up the great work!
Linz, we are going to have moments like these. We said at the beginning that it was about long-term change, not a quick fix. It is going to take a long time to fix our ingrained bad habits. That's why we are here to tell each other about it. I loved how honest you were in your post. We are going to have times where we just want to quit and say it isn't worth it. But it will be. And I know you can do it. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. Maybe it will help to have a few healthy things on hand that are quick in the mornings for when you don't have time to prepare yourself food. Just keep your goals in sight and if you need to, re-evaluate what is realistic in your plan. Body for Life is so great, but it is hard timewise. I remember having a hard time making so many meals. You are amazing and I hope you realize it. Just start out the week fresh and keep going. And remember, if you blow it one meal, it doesn't mean the whole day is done. You can still do it, don't torture yourself for it. And if you can't resist eating something unhealthy, just have some, and then keep going. You can do it!
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