hmmm . . . what's else is new?

Did I fail at the Fuhrman diet? You better believe it. But what else is new? I have felt similar to Lindsey in the sense that I'm very discouraged about weight loss. I don't know why I can't control myself when it comes to eating healthy. I think sometimes I just want what's quick and easy, but that's not usually what is best for me.

Today I had a presentation for my Shakespeare class. We acted out a role, and I took one of the lead parts, thinking that I would do well because I had experience in performing. When I got up in front of the class, I felt so self-conscious. When I used to perform, I was very confident, and I knew I looked good. So today was hard, and I sucked. And to everyone in the class, I'm sure I looked really uncomfortable. I know that I need to lose weight, not so that I look good (although that will be a plus), but so that I feel confident. With job searching, etc. going on in my life, I need to make sure I look and feel confident. That's a hard thing for me to do sometimes, but I think I can do it. I really need to exercise and stuff too.

So Lindsey, and others, we really need to support each other in eating healthy. We can't just get together on weekends and eat crap like we normally do. And we can't pressure each other into eating crappy. We just need to eat healthy and support each other. That's my soap box speech. I know you all feel inspired, but I think we can do it. And Linz, I think you're on the right track. We love you no matter what. Don't get down on yourself. We all fail at our goals sometimes. I think that as Fullmers we are very impulsive, and that's why goal-keeping can be so difficult. We think, "That hotdog on a stick smells really good. I want one." And we don't think through what we're doing sometimes. I have to control myself a lot and stop being impulsive. I love buying clothes and I love buying fast food. But I don't have the money to do either of them, and I know fast food isn't good for me. I still do it. So just keep going. Maybe we need to report to each other a little better.

How are the rest of you doing?

Love you all!

Aly